I Need to Take a Sleeping Pill

Hades insists on ordering for me when we go out, but I know that he will order Tartars for us both. I sometimes think—even though we’ve been married now for a long time—that he puts some sort of date rape drug in my drink when we go out. It’s all kind of funny. He doesn’t need to drug me to get me to have sex with him. I’m not going to say no to him. But all I can imagine is that he wants to think that I will resist and so by drugging me, he makes it impossible for me to resist—which gives him a greater sense of power.

I play along with all of this, but I do wonder what it would be like to have sex without drugs. It’s been so long since I had a “pure” experience. I have no idea what it would be like.

Maybe if I were Queen of Hell WITHOUT HADES I would try other ways of worshipping Aphrodite. That’s what lovemaking really is, worshipping Aphrodite. She commands it and if we do not comply, if we do not include lovemaking in our lives, she really can make a lot of trouble for us.

Maybe that’s why Hades drugs me before we have sex. Maybe he thinks that if drugs are involved, the act is less loving and therefore less of an act of worship towards Aphrodite.

Maybe I should take a sleeping pill. I need to be rested before we go out tonight.